Last night I had an interesting thing happen to me. I had what is called by some as a "God encounter". I have been trying some things to continually work on my spiritual growth because just reading scripture, praying, fellowship and other "church" type stuff only did so much. I mean I would continually struggle and fight things I always thought would dissipate over time. Well they would but I always did a bandage type of a job. I mean I only got some of the surface level problems and how to keep putting a bandage over the wound. So last night I dove deep with the help of and amazing woman that I get the pleasure of calling my girlfriend (even though she's a woman and not a girl).
We all have wounds. We all have problems due to a fall of adam in Genesis chapter 2. Our flesh rides high in this world unless we seek the face of the healer to do more then a bandage so as the problem to come back like a festering wound and if not properly handled will cause something like gangrene in our body and do more damage then it should ever. Scripture speaks of God as a healing God (Ps. 103:3, Isa. 53:5, Mal. 4:2, Matt. 4:23, James 5:16, Rev. 22:1-2). This is what I sought last night. I honestly was scared cause if what I was hoping for would happen then my securities would be removed or at least start to be removed. And guess what that is what happened. God removed a burden but what was a burden I always thought of as security.
As a man I still struggle with allowing people into my heart of hearts. I always learned that standing string as a "man" was to look like your strong but this was and is wrong. By letting people in I have become stronger then even and will continue to grow in this way the more vulnerable I allow myself to become. Last night was another step in vulnerability and healing. I excited to say this and allow Danielle into this area of my life. I know she loves, cares and wants the best for me, she trust me and calls me "her man" (because I am just that; a man)...I say this cause I am excited about this and its even more so a part of me healing and growing.
Because of my "God encounter" last night I an taking one step forward at a time. Nothing in this world defines me. I am pressing onward toward the goal in Christ Jesus. I am working out my salvation in fear and trembling. I am a man. I am a man that struggles but looks to Y'shua to help me up and heal me. I am redeemed. I am seated with Christ in the heavenly places. And guess what, I am EXACTLY who God called and created me to be.
This is who I am and am working towards!
This is who I am
We all have wounds. We all have problems due to a fall of adam in Genesis chapter 2. Our flesh rides high in this world unless we seek the face of the healer to do more then a bandage so as the problem to come back like a festering wound and if not properly handled will cause something like gangrene in our body and do more damage then it should ever. Scripture speaks of God as a healing God (Ps. 103:3, Isa. 53:5, Mal. 4:2, Matt. 4:23, James 5:16, Rev. 22:1-2). This is what I sought last night. I honestly was scared cause if what I was hoping for would happen then my securities would be removed or at least start to be removed. And guess what that is what happened. God removed a burden but what was a burden I always thought of as security.
As a man I still struggle with allowing people into my heart of hearts. I always learned that standing string as a "man" was to look like your strong but this was and is wrong. By letting people in I have become stronger then even and will continue to grow in this way the more vulnerable I allow myself to become. Last night was another step in vulnerability and healing. I excited to say this and allow Danielle into this area of my life. I know she loves, cares and wants the best for me, she trust me and calls me "her man" (because I am just that; a man)...I say this cause I am excited about this and its even more so a part of me healing and growing.
Because of my "God encounter" last night I an taking one step forward at a time. Nothing in this world defines me. I am pressing onward toward the goal in Christ Jesus. I am working out my salvation in fear and trembling. I am a man. I am a man that struggles but looks to Y'shua to help me up and heal me. I am redeemed. I am seated with Christ in the heavenly places. And guess what, I am EXACTLY who God called and created me to be.
This is who I am and am working towards!
This is who I am
Isn't it crazy that the very things we are afraid of releasing is what usually keeps us trapped? They are false protectors, convincing us we need them to stay safe, but all the while they offer destruction and pain. I am so grateful for what Y'shua is doing in your life and how I get to be a part of it.
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